Here is my morning my reminder that I have a creative soul. I am built of beautiful material and I can achieve amazing things. I hinted about the big changes in my life recently earlier this year... For 10 years I spent the majority of every day in a passive-aggressive, co-dependent, job. Which, given my personal history, IS NOT a healthy place to have been. The thing is, "they" are right, you stay for the people. And, I worked with some wonderful people that changed my life in beautiful ways. But there were others, as there always are, that simply sucked ... the life and soul right out of me.
Until this week I didn't fully understand what a toll this took on me. I am amazed at how many times a day I question my self: my ability, my personality, my opinions, my intelligence and my talent. This simply can not be allowed to continue. I don't know the exact day it started but I'm ending it. It's time to listen to my creative soul again.
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Good for you, Toni!!!! You are a beautiful person, inside and out, and an inspiration. Yes, you DO inspire others, and may be unaware of your 'connection' to others.
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THANK YOU SOO much!!It is important to have reminders and I am so thankful for mine.
DeleteToni you are an inspiration to me. Your creativity is what pushed me to become a CZT last year. I too have a job that can do the same, we must ignore because we are special, inspiring souls.
ReplyDeleteDeborah, CZT
Stay focused Deborah! And thank you for your reminder.. It is amazing how much it helps!!!
DeleteGood for you! Stopping it is the best you can do for yourself!
ReplyDeleteIt was a long time coming but the best decision to have made!!!
Deletehi toni,
ReplyDeletei am glad you did not lose your creative soul. sometimes it can be hard to find yourself again when you've been in a rut...don't i know it. ;) anyway, i always see this quote on another blog i read and your post made me think of it. it's the kind of quote that on some days makes me want to hit people, but other days makes me think, yeah ok i can do this. wishing you the best with rediscovering the real creative you.
"courage doesn't always roar. sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying 'i will try again tomorrow.'" -mary anne radmacher
Reba, THANK YOU!! Know that you were one of the best ones there! I miss you every day.
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